OCTOBER 25

SO EXCITEDDDD! (:

love.

im a lovey mood today...<3

my new obsession.

Mine by Taylor Swift

Uh, uh, uh oh


Uh, uh, uh oh

You were in college working part time waiting tables

Left a small town, never looked back

I was the flight risk with the fear of fallin'

Wonderin' why we bothered with love if it never lasts

I say "Can you believe it?"

As we're lying on the couch

The moment I can see it

Yes, yes I can see it now

Do you remember we were sittin' there by the water?

You put your arm around me for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward and we're taking on the world together

And there's a drawer of my things at your place

You learned my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded

You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we've got bills to pay

We got nothing figured out

When it was hard to take yes, yes

This is what I thought about

Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?

You put your arm around me for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water

You saw me start to believe for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Uh, uh, uh, oh



And I remember that fight 2:30 AM

Cause everything was slippin' right out of our hands

I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye

Cause that's all I've ever known

And you took me by surprise

You said "I'll never leave you alone"

You said

"I remember how we felt sittin' by the water

And every time I look at you it's like the first time

I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter

She is the best thing that's ever been mine"

(Hold on, we'll make it last)

(Hold on, never turn back)

(Hold on) You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

(Hold on) You are the best thing that's ever been mine

(Hold on) Do you believe it?

(Hold on) We're gonna make it now

(Hold on) And I can see it

(Yeah, yeah, yeah)

I can see it now

i see the good in you, even when everyone else doesn't.

once upon a time, there was a girl who fell for a boy...i wish things were that simple.

have you ever fell for someone you really shouldn't fall for? the fact that every person I come in contact with tells me, "he's a bad kid, don't pursue him"....to late, doesnt help at all. Rumor is that he used to do drugs and drink, another rumor says that's a rumor.  I dont know what to believe...i just keep backing him up that he's a good kid and people are just making this stuff up. the problem is, he's a genuinely nice guy, you would never suspect anything.
see, when i fall for someone, i fall hard.
supposively he doesnt do anything anymore, and im not one to dwell on the past, as long as youve delt with it and havent left that situation wide open. so, despite what everyone tells me, im gonna continue to build a friendship with him. kids like that need someone to be a positive influence. im not saying at all that i want to change him, thanks to A Walk to Remember, girls got the idea that they can change bad boys...wrong. but i do want him to know that i like him and see the best in him, and hopefully he'll then see it in himself.

Forgiven

Forgiven by Sanctus Real

Well the past is playing with my head

And failure knocks me down again

I’m reminded of the wrong

That I have said and done

And that devil just wont let me forget

In this life

I know what I’ve been

But here in your arms

I know what I am

[chorus]

I’m forgiven

I’m forgiven

And I don’t have to carry

The weight of who I’ve been

Cause I’m forgiven

My mistakes are running through my mind

And I’ll relive my days, in the middle of the night

When I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride

Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

In this life

I know what I’ve been

But here in your arms

I know what I am

[back to chorus]

When I don't fit in and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere

When I don’t measure up to much in this life

Oh, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ ‘cause

[back to chorus]

5 DAYS!

Five days from now I'll be in the beautiful city of Naperville, Illlinois. I am super excited to go visit the city and all of my family. While I'm in Naperville, I'll be at my cousins house. Then after a couple of days in the 'burbs, I'll head up to my grandparents farm in the RURAL city of Gridley, Illinois. Just a quiet farm town tucked away in the midwest. I love spending time there, it brings out the small town country girl in me(:

wow. i cant believe my summer is halfway over. it seems like it just started. im not ready to deal with teachers, kids, drama, and everyhting else school related. i only have a month and like 10 days left...only 3 more years til college!

the only good thing about school starting is the many adventures coming up in the fall. for example: my cousins' wedding, college road trip, and birthday cruise!

FIRST of, my cousins' wedding. In september, my cousin Nick is getting married in Kentucky. at first my parents didnt want to go but it turns out i have half days at school on thursday and friday so i get to miss school! yay! i love weddings, the last time I was at a wedding i was like 10 so i didnt really understand.

NEXT, college road trip. Sometime in the fall, my friend Amanda and I are going to Auburn University for a college tour. Amandas going to be a junios next year and she is starting to look at colleges, so since were both interested in Auburn, shes taking me along.

LAST, birthday cruise! ok i am super excited for my birthday this year. since ill be turning 16, my mom told me i could either have a Sweet Sixteen or take a trip somewhere. even though i love planning parties, i almost felt like taking a trip somewhere would be alot more fun and it saves alot of money. i'll still have a little get-together with my friends but nothing big. at first i had my heart set on nyc but my moms friend suggested a cruise after i spent 10 minutes taking about how i want to go to the bahamas. so i thought about it and i am sold. so january 13th i board the Carnival Sensation en route to the BAHAMAS(: (although, the last time i went on a cruise i was 5 or 6, so im kinda nervous. big boat, deep water, yeah i dont want another titanic moment on my cruise) I am superrrrr eccstatic!

thoughts

So as I sit here watching The Bachelorette on television, I really begin to understand the meaning of the word..needy. Needy for love, needy for a partner, needy for a relationship. I almost find it kind of funny that guys can get like that. I know it has always been said that women are the needy ones but watching these MEN compete for a woman's heart like this is crazy!
Last week I was at my church's camp and one night the speaker talked about what men/women want from themselves. He said men want to feel strong and that they're good enough, like those alpha males on movies. Women on the other hand, want to be loved, want to feel wanted...aka needy. Now hearing somebody else tell me this I realized how true it is. Most everything a girl does is to either draw attention to themselves or feel important and loved. God created humans to have that need for love. Now that's exactly why we have reality tv shows where people are competing for love. They have to fill that need somewhere.
I think one of the best parts about being a Christian is that, even when we can't find earthly love, we have our Fathers neverending love! Christ fills and overflows our need for love. Think about it, I am always complaining about whether the guy I like doesn't like me back, or someone likes me and I'm not too interested...but we have a Father who we can always look to and no matter what we have done, will always love us! That almost just gives me chills that God loves us THAt much!(:

summer lovin'

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steady as a preacher, free as a weed. couldnt wait to get goin but wasnt could ready to leave. so innocent, pure and sweet.  like american honey. its two feet on the dashboard, young love and an old Ford. and my whole world begins and ends with you. and when that summer sun starts beatin down and you dont know what to do, just go and grab someone you wanna see in a bathing suit and drive until the map turns BLUE.

                         we're unforgettable, daisy dukes, bikinis on top, sun-kissed skin, so hot.
                                                                   SUMMER 2010(:

i love lists.

i got this in an email and thought id share it with you..

Lessons of LifeWritten By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland,Ohio

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone...
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends andparents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what theirjourney is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; Godnever blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never to o late to have a happy childhood. But the second oneis up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take nofor an answer.
21. Don't save anything for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
25. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years,will this matter?'
26. Always choose life.
27. Forgive everyone everything.
28. What other people think of you is none of your business.
29. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
30. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
31. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
32. Believe in miracles.
33. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything youdid or didn't do.
34. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
35. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
36. Your children get only one childhood.
37. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
38. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
39. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's,we'd grab ours back.
40. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
41. The best is yet to come. (my personal favorite)
42. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
43. Yield.
44. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift

hello sophomore.

freshman year has come and gone in such short time. it seems like just yesterday i was walking into the unfamiliar hallways of high school, and now im walking out, only to return again in the fall...

bittersweet goodbye.

When you look back on times we had, I hope you smile

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bmKqc67m-ik&feature=related

"Whenever You Remember"

When you look back on times we had

I hope you smile

And know that through the good and through the bad

I was on your side when nobody could hold us down

We claimed the brightest star

And we, we came so far

And no they won't forget

[Chorus]Whenever you remember times gone by

Remember how we held our heads so high

When all this world was there for us

And we believed that we could touch the sky

Whenever you remember, I'll be there

Remember how we reached that dream together

Whenever you remember

When you think back on all we've doneI hope you're proud

When you look back and see how far we've come

It was our time to shine

And nobody could hold us down

They thought they'd see us fall

But we, we stood so tall

And no we won't forget

Whenever you remember times gone by

Remember how we held our heads so high

When all this world was there for us

And we believed that we could touch the sky

Whenever you remember, I'll be there

Remember how we reached that dream together

Whenever you remember

Yeah, Oh

We claimed the brightest star

And we, we came so far

You know that we, we showed them all

And no they won't forget

Yeah

Whenever you remember times gone by

Remember how we held our heads so high

When all this world was there for us

And we believed that we could touch the sky

Whenever you remember, I'll be there

Remember how we reached that dream together

Whenever you remember

Whenever you remember

Oh, whenever you remember

Couldn't wait to get goin', But wasn't quite ready to leave

As this school year comes to a close, I want to look back on the memories of my first year in high school. This year was one very memorable year that I will never forget, and I hope that the next three years of high school are the same. At this time last year, I was deeply scared for high school and the aspects going along with it. I was scared of being the small fish in a big pond, especially coming from middle school were you are at the top. Its like starting all over again. But as this year began, I started to realize that high school is not like the movies. Now, I go to a private christian school so its completely different from public school. All the silly rules we were under in middle school, suddenly seemed to not affect me in high school. Many people always ask me if I like my school, and feel sorry for me that I go to a private school. Well, I love my school and if I had the option to go somewhere else, I would turn it down.

Freshman year has not only brought wonderful memories and unforgetable moments, but I have built lifelong friendships. In the past year, I have really discovered who I can trust and who my real friends are. I have started friendships with many awesome people, and built great bonds with alot of seniors, juniors, and sophmores.
I've really enjoyed getting to know some awesome senior girls who encourage me and strengthen me daily. I'm extremely sad to see them graduate and start a new chapter in their life.
For the seniors, with graduation growing closer, alot of them are ready just to leave. But when I'm a senior I know that it will be really hard for me to say goodbye to the place I have called 'home' for all my life, or been raised to put God first in life, where I have met lifelong friends, or the halls that I walked everyday. Graduating in my option, will be a bitter-sweet memory.

complacency.

When it comes to life the critical thing is whether you take things for granted or take them with gratitude.”-G.K. Chesterton

Right now I'm in a place in my life where I feel content with myself and who I am. Although, I have realized how much I take things for granted. Whether its living another day on this earth, always relying on a friend that suddenly walks out of your life, a nice home and food, or just the simple luxary of a cell phone. Psalm 39: 4-5 says "Show me, O LORD, my life's end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting is my life. You have made my days a mere handbreadth; the span of my years is as nothing before you. Each man's life is but a breath." What I have to keep reminding myself is that we are not guaranteed another day on this earth, and daily God blesses us with one more day to serve him. that is something I take for granted.

Another thing I take for granted is friendships, in my mind I just assume that I will always have these people to surround me and love me. But in the blink of an eye, any one of them could be taken away. As humans we grow complacent with people. Its not until they are almost taken away from you, when you realize how much you really need them. In my lifetime, I dont want to take my friends for granted, because as much as some of them bug me, I love them all. Our life is too short to hold middle school grudges and form hateful ideas towards someone. Cause in the end, its not about how many people loved you, or that you were homecoming queen. Once you die all that has been stripped away from you. Some advice I give to myself, dont get cought up in the friendship drama because one day you could lose it all. I want to challenge myself to treasure each one of my friends because they mean the WORLD to me and I dont want to take them for granted.

This Aint Goodbye

So today I found out that my best friend since middle school might be moving to Virgina. I had know for a while that her dad didnt have a job and was looking, and when he found one in D.C i knew there might be a possibility of her leaving. But it had never really sunk in, until today when it hit me like a truck. I just began to think this might be the last month of her at school with me. It broke my heart. She is one of the best friends I have ever had, and the thought of her moving to a different state is terrible. I'm tearing up just writing this. Last night I wrote her a letter, that I will give to her IF she moves, on the back I tried to name as many inside jokes as the page would fit. Every moment I spend with her more memories are made that i wont ever forget. One of my biggest fears of her moving, is losing her forever. I fear that once she gets up there she'll meet new cooler friends and forget about her old ones, because I will never forget our friendship. Hundreds of miles can't seperate a bond like ours(: thank you treva for being an AMAZING friend. youre the BEST, i love you!

cause you are the brightest star, and im in love with who you are.

cousin love!

she is the BEST(:

things.

one of my favorite things to do is make lists. haha i know it sounds silly but to me it lets me express who i am through details. so i came up with a list about me and some pictures.

things that make me who i am...
-i love country music
-my friends influence me a whole lot
-i have a fear of being alone
-i wish i had a different laugh
-i strive to enjoy every single second of being young
-i hope to attend a southern college
-i spend alot of time straightening my hair, even though i try and convince myself everday i shouldnt
-i love my school, despite everything other people say
-i am a true Floridian
-my name is madelyn renee(:

commitment

so today i figured out one thing. i might have a fear of commitment. i was reading another blog and it got me thinking. last year, i liked this boy and he liked me and i wanted with all my heart for him to always be mine. but when the time came, and he actually asked me out, i said no. something didnt feel right. now looking back on that, i realized i didnt want a boyfriend, a commitment. in my opininon, i believe having a boyfriend in high school sorta ties you down. now dont get me wrong, im not oppossed to dating someone in high school and i cant promise you i most certianly will not. but, high school is your time to just have fun and live life while your young. yes, times with your boyfriend may be fond memories, but i personally believe i do not want a serious relationship/commitment until im out of high school.

Bucket List

So lately I have read alot of these lately so I decided I'd write one. I thought once I actually put the pen to the paper that I would struggle to come up with a creative list, but to my suprise it actually came pretty easy. enjoy.
just thought i should add some more(:

1. build a fire from scratch
2. read all the Nicholas Sparks' books
3. adopt a child
4. stand in Times Square on New Years
5. kiss in the rain
6. get a pink highlight in my hair
7. visit France and stand under the Eiffel tower
8. watch the sunrise atop a mountain
9. ride a motorcycle
10. be a maid of honor
11. visit the Great Barrier Reef
12. go on a mission trip
13. fall in love
14. visit China
15. have a full on conversation with a Spanish person
16. ride an elephant
17. be an exchange student
18. get a tattoo
19. decorate someone else's house
20. play hide-and-seek in a vineyard
21. star in a professional photography shoot
22. live in a house with a wrap around porch under big oak trees on a lake
23. attend a movie premiere
24. bring a random stranger flowers
25. start a new trend
26. dye my hair a completely different color
27. swim with dolphins
28. see the 7 wonders of the world
29. save a life
30. start a buisness
31. go to a planatarium
32. take a floral art class
33. stay best friends with someone my whole life
34. go kayaking
35. learn to ballroom dance

FOREVER YOUNG(:

So now having this blog I realize how bad I am at keeping up with it. I try and make time for it but then, as always life gets crazy.

So last week I was on my (much needed) Spring Break! I finally after eight months got to go to the beach!! I dont think as a Floridian I'm used to the abnormal amount of cold weather we have had lately, needless to say the beach felt super nice. I am more than ready for summer, nothing seems better to me than tank tops, flip flops, running barefoot, and swimming on the lake(: When I think about how fast my first year of high school went, I wonder if the next 3 will be the same? Next time I blink I will be ending my senior year. Whenever I think about it the song "Dont Blink" by Kenny Chesney comes to my mind and theres one line that says "Don't blink, Life Goes Faster Than You Think". There is the saying that people have said for years that says high school is the best 4 years of your life, and I could not agree more. Even though you do have to be serious and focus on your schoolwork, in high school you get to be young and crazy. High school comes with the many memories of high school girlfriends, falling for boys, and just being a young fun bubbly girl. In my opinion, I believe that high school will be the most funnest years of my life, oh to be young and get excited over pointless things and be totally careless. I hope these next 3 years continue to bring me lifetime memories, because one day were gonna want this all back. I wish I could be FOREVER YOUNG(:

all of you is more than enough for me.

In the past week or so I have really just been captivated by these songs, all of them convey a different message but point to the same truth.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHEm-b4IRYk- enough by chris tomlin

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CkBh5ObVyww- devotion by hillsong united

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xS-bRarAZ2g- what do i know of holy by addison road

I really encourage you to listen to these songs and i mean really listen. When you just sit completely still and let the words of these songs mean something to you, it almost brings you to tears.
A couple nights ago I read my friends blog that basically said that we all are in pursuit of something and we work with our whole heart to achieve that goal. But yet we don't pursue Christ half as much as we pursue a boy at school. She said(and I quote!), "the way we pursue our King should be infinitesimally more passionate, unequivocally more persistent, and incomparably more important." She is 100% true! I read this and immediately felt that I needed to read it, it really pinpoints what Ive been feeling lately. So, thank you so much Kaley for saying the much needed words we all need to hear:)

Psalm 99:3Let them praise your great and awesome name— he is holy.

Blessings

Before I close for the night, I wanted to share something I was talking about with my family. Saturday morning I was sitting at the kitchen table with my mom and grandparents. We were talking about how we are so lucky to have what we have here in America, cause other countries are not as fortunate as us. We thought, what if God had placed us in Haiti, for example, instead of America. By the grace of God, He allowed us to be born into a wonderful country with many unecesary luxaries. I want to thank Him everyday if the blessings He has given me, and never take them for granted.

Ephesians 1:3[ Spiritual Blessings in Christ ] Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ.

Valentines Day

Well hey there! It seems like its been forever. I meant to post this blog on friday night but I guess it didnt get done. I also want to let you know that this blog is kinda personal too me and I really thought about what I was gonna write before writing it. Well as you all are aware today is Valentines day! I know this holiday seems like a day for only people in love, and whenever Febuary 14th rolls around, if you are not in a relationship, you spend the day sitting at home watching romantic movies wishing it was you. Well this should not be the case! Valentines day was created in honor of love, an excuse for Hallmark stores across the country to sell more cards, for chocolate companies to sell more chocolate, and for florist's to sell more flowers. And people have made it that if you are not dating on vday then you are alone, sad, and unhappy. Wow, America way to get the wrong idea. I personally believe that you can celebrate vday, happy and single. Because girls, here is the truth: you do not need a man to make you happy. I know, I know we all read the books, see the movies and invision the fairy-tale true love. Ladies, we are all strong and independant. Alot of times guys think we are weak and just need men to hang on. Now dont get me wrong, I dont hate Valentines day or love. In fact, I am a hopeless romantic who dreams of a fairytale romance. But dont let this Valentines day bring you down! We most definately can be single and happy. One day we all will get our valentine:)



I also wanted to share what I think true love is. When I think of falling in love and what it will feel like I think of 1 Corinthians 13: "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." Those last three words really dig deep into my heart, love NEVER fails. When these words were written in the bible, it was God's feeling for us. His love for us NEVER(ever!) fails, He loves us beyond imagine! So when I read this I put it into perspective for a future husband. Today in church we were talking about the myths of love, and one of the myths was: Love is a fairytale. Wow, as soon as these words flashed up on the screen I sunk into my chair. If I could describe the love I picture, it would be FAIRYTALE! They had a married couple talk about how their marriage at first was not a fairy tale, despite their expections and fantasies. And immediately I thought to myself, well here is how I picture my future marriage: we wake up next to each other, he kisses my forehead, we dance in the rain(thanks taylor swift for this fantasy), he wraps his arms around me and sweeps me off my feet, he sings to me, we walk in the park together, we have tons of kids together, and we grow old together. Now, tell me does that sounds extremely fantasy too you? yeah i thought so:) And you say, well what if I dont get married? Actually, I really have never asked myself that. Girls dont really live their life thinking "if" I get married, we think "when" we get married. so when they talked about this is made me realize it will be tough but with God in the center of your relationships and marriage, you will become strong. So I wish everyone a Happy Valentines Day:)

all that im after is a life full of laughter.

Good morning everyone! Last night was a start to my crazy weekend. I celebrated my birthday last night with my friends and we went and saw the movie Dear John. I definatley recommend it, but you should absolutley read the book first! It was a wonderful love story about a guy and a girl, and the guy goes off to war and it basically is their story from then on. And Channing Tatum plays John(definate plus!). And tonight I'm going to my friends Quinceneara(not quite sure how to spell it), which will be a blast! Since I have never been to one before:)

Also, another little bit of exciting news! I got my PERMIT! wahooo! yep, this monday I went and got my permit at the DMV. And let me tell you, that is a crazy place! but now that its all over with I can drive, I just went out this morning and drove! hahaha:)

My grandparents from Illinois are here right now. Which is always fun since I only get to see them twice out of the year. And we have no school next friday or monday(holla!), so I think we are gonna do some stuff around the town with them.

:) madie

Haiti

Continue to pray for the people of Haiti and the families that have lost loved ones. That earthquake has left the cities of Haiti in destruction. I cannot even imagine the devastation, the pain, and hurt the people there are going through. But they are in God's hands and are being protected, and what we can do right now is pray,pray,pray.

New Beginings

So I recently picked up on blogging, and I have fallen in love. I could spent countless hours going on about my life and so much more in these posts(but I will try not to for your sake:)). When I was trying to think of a title for this blog, my word for the year "fearless" kept popping into my mind. Many of you when you hear the word "fearless" think of Taylor Swift. Honestly, that's where I really was first introduced to the word. All my life I thought "fearless" meant without fear, until I read a excert from TSwift's cd that said this:


"FEARLESS is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost."

Something about those words really frame the kind of person we ought to be. Yes, everyone has fears(I don't know anyone that doesn't), and we have to learn to live in spite of them. Do not let your fears shape the person you become. Also, like she says everyone falls down everyone becomes weak but you need to stand back up and fight for what you want. I love the quote that says, "If you stand for nothing, you will fall for anything."

Why I choose "fearless" as my word for the year? When I looked up fearless in the dictionary one of the definitions said "in awe of" and I thought about that and related it to God, and it hit me that I need to be more in awe of God. Some much of the time I just expect God to work and move in my life, not even really asking, taking away the awe I have for God. He is such a mighty, powerful, holy, soverign God that alot of the time we know what God can do and don't even give him credit. So I am spending this year on realizing the awe of our Lord Jesus. :)