This Aint Goodbye

So today I found out that my best friend since middle school might be moving to Virgina. I had know for a while that her dad didnt have a job and was looking, and when he found one in D.C i knew there might be a possibility of her leaving. But it had never really sunk in, until today when it hit me like a truck. I just began to think this might be the last month of her at school with me. It broke my heart. She is one of the best friends I have ever had, and the thought of her moving to a different state is terrible. I'm tearing up just writing this. Last night I wrote her a letter, that I will give to her IF she moves, on the back I tried to name as many inside jokes as the page would fit. Every moment I spend with her more memories are made that i wont ever forget. One of my biggest fears of her moving, is losing her forever. I fear that once she gets up there she'll meet new cooler friends and forget about her old ones, because I will never forget our friendship. Hundreds of miles can't seperate a bond like ours(: thank you treva for being an AMAZING friend. youre the BEST, i love you!

cause you are the brightest star, and im in love with who you are.

cousin love!

she is the BEST(:

things.

one of my favorite things to do is make lists. haha i know it sounds silly but to me it lets me express who i am through details. so i came up with a list about me and some pictures.

things that make me who i am...
-i love country music
-my friends influence me a whole lot
-i have a fear of being alone
-i wish i had a different laugh
-i strive to enjoy every single second of being young
-i hope to attend a southern college
-i spend alot of time straightening my hair, even though i try and convince myself everday i shouldnt
-i love my school, despite everything other people say
-i am a true Floridian
-my name is madelyn renee(:

commitment

so today i figured out one thing. i might have a fear of commitment. i was reading another blog and it got me thinking. last year, i liked this boy and he liked me and i wanted with all my heart for him to always be mine. but when the time came, and he actually asked me out, i said no. something didnt feel right. now looking back on that, i realized i didnt want a boyfriend, a commitment. in my opininon, i believe having a boyfriend in high school sorta ties you down. now dont get me wrong, im not oppossed to dating someone in high school and i cant promise you i most certianly will not. but, high school is your time to just have fun and live life while your young. yes, times with your boyfriend may be fond memories, but i personally believe i do not want a serious relationship/commitment until im out of high school.

Bucket List

So lately I have read alot of these lately so I decided I'd write one. I thought once I actually put the pen to the paper that I would struggle to come up with a creative list, but to my suprise it actually came pretty easy. enjoy.
just thought i should add some more(:

1. build a fire from scratch
2. read all the Nicholas Sparks' books
3. adopt a child
4. stand in Times Square on New Years
5. kiss in the rain
6. get a pink highlight in my hair
7. visit France and stand under the Eiffel tower
8. watch the sunrise atop a mountain
9. ride a motorcycle
10. be a maid of honor
11. visit the Great Barrier Reef
12. go on a mission trip
13. fall in love
14. visit China
15. have a full on conversation with a Spanish person
16. ride an elephant
17. be an exchange student
18. get a tattoo
19. decorate someone else's house
20. play hide-and-seek in a vineyard
21. star in a professional photography shoot
22. live in a house with a wrap around porch under big oak trees on a lake
23. attend a movie premiere
24. bring a random stranger flowers
25. start a new trend
26. dye my hair a completely different color
27. swim with dolphins
28. see the 7 wonders of the world
29. save a life
30. start a buisness
31. go to a planatarium
32. take a floral art class
33. stay best friends with someone my whole life
34. go kayaking
35. learn to ballroom dance

FOREVER YOUNG(:

So now having this blog I realize how bad I am at keeping up with it. I try and make time for it but then, as always life gets crazy.

So last week I was on my (much needed) Spring Break! I finally after eight months got to go to the beach!! I dont think as a Floridian I'm used to the abnormal amount of cold weather we have had lately, needless to say the beach felt super nice. I am more than ready for summer, nothing seems better to me than tank tops, flip flops, running barefoot, and swimming on the lake(: When I think about how fast my first year of high school went, I wonder if the next 3 will be the same? Next time I blink I will be ending my senior year. Whenever I think about it the song "Dont Blink" by Kenny Chesney comes to my mind and theres one line that says "Don't blink, Life Goes Faster Than You Think". There is the saying that people have said for years that says high school is the best 4 years of your life, and I could not agree more. Even though you do have to be serious and focus on your schoolwork, in high school you get to be young and crazy. High school comes with the many memories of high school girlfriends, falling for boys, and just being a young fun bubbly girl. In my opinion, I believe that high school will be the most funnest years of my life, oh to be young and get excited over pointless things and be totally careless. I hope these next 3 years continue to bring me lifetime memories, because one day were gonna want this all back. I wish I could be FOREVER YOUNG(: